check todays date. 20-07-2007.

not feeling much, numbing off everything. trying to study, started, but a little off schedule. i don't really know how to face people now. the once quick thinker has been reduced to staring at people i know, wanting to say hi, but just can't respond fast enough. keeping a low profile for now, till i regain my former self....

gotta think faster! gotta think faster! faster faster faster.

and yet after all this, i still dont cut myself. i won't ever. so i don't see why people go slashing their limbs off because " oh no i broke up with her!" or " my friends don't trust me!" or "no one likes me!" God gave you those arms, and u go destroy it. Everytime those emo people cut themselves, they say they don't feel pain, but see alot of blood. can't they see, those are God's tears, and He is just protecting you from the pain? the world is nuts....